Ziggi Willpower
Ziggi Willpower
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falling in love with reading again | a reading vlog
I've had super low reading motiviation the past weeks so I decided a vlog would be my medicine.
Books mentioned: When I grow up I want to be a list of further possibilities - Chen Chen, Strange beasts of China - Yan Ge, Julius Caesar - Shakespeare, The Raven Cycle/The Raven king - Maggie Stiefvater, Angels In America pt 1 - Tony Kushner
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Видео

The Furies is a hot mess and I need to rant 🤷
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Let's rant about a book I didn't liiiiiike :) If you wanted to read this, go watch The Craft, or Thirteen, or read The Power by Naomi Alderman for better takes on the same theme. @RianPhin 's video about Thirteen is excellent and you can find it here: ruclips.net/video/Ach8MXkmUDo/видео.html
the dark academia book tag 🕯️📚☕
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doing the #DarkAcademiaBookTag , created by @CarolynMarieReads and @emmiereads , one year later than everyone else but have I ever been on time with any trend, ever? Lowercase Léna's excellent video on dark academia: ruclips.net/video/38IBAxhPJfc/видео.html Things mentioned in the video: Marble - Amalie Smith, The catcher in the rye - J.D. Salinger, Educated - Tara Westover, The royal tenenbaum...
everything I read in december bc 🌝 what even is time 🌝
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youtube keeps deleting comments so be careful w using links and language referring to unmoralic things like qv33erness and seksualitey i guess? books mentioned: The Odyssey - Homer, 100 Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Spinning - Tillie Walden, Upright Women Wanted - Sarah Gailey, Unicorn - Amrou Al-Khadi, By grand central station i sat down and wept - Elizabeth Smart, Howl's moving ...
how i want to read in ✨2021✨
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What do you think about doing a trans read-a-thon/reading weekend? Would you want to participate in something like that? Books mentioned: Kungens dag - Abdellah Taïa, short stories by Jorge Luis Borges, Convenience store woman - Sayaka Murata, Kiss of the spider woman - Manuel Puig, The raven boys - Maggie Stiefvater Video that explains Invisible Citites Project and has links to the discord ser...
I read 80 books in 2020 and here are the best and the worst
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time to do my first yearly reading wrap-up :) I realise I did not really expand on *why* i dislike The pervs are being a wallpaper, but here's a goodreads review that pretty much says it all : www.goodreads.com/review/show/180884395?book_show_action=true&from_review_page=1
a famous play about trans ppl? where?? 📚🎭 why 4:48 psychosis is queer af
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You can read "4:48 Psychosis" by Sarah Kane here: rlmalvin.angelfire.com/KaneSarah448Psychosis.pdf (and it's on a fkn ANGELFIRE site, so very "old internet")
A weekend of Rilke, ducks and short stories 📚🦆
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A very chill weekend with surprise duck cameo :) I mention so many books in this one I can't be bothered to write them all in here, but just ask and I'll give you the names! Music: Track : 쓸쓸함 Music by 브금대통령 [ruclips.net/video/ST6GEoUGtqg/видео.html](ruclips.net/video/ST6GEoUGtqg/видео.html) Track : Healing in the Forest Music by 브금대통령 Music provided by 브금대통령 [ruclips.net/video/bz_tOVa3ezg/виде...
Problematic books and trying to do better 💔💗
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at 09:24 I lost a bit where I say "What does ethical consumption mean to you?" Lemme know if my opinions suck! #MyProblematicFavBookTag Original video: ruclips.net/video/ulOtceCMkOY/видео.html Queer channels you should go follow: HyeJin Starlight ruclips.net/channel/UCeyEnVQvhdBG1YrfiDbY1aQ Poetology ruclips.net/channel/UCTgar-OopKQasmjfoNJ19Kw Chronicles of Noria ruclips.net/user/sitenoebulu a...
Everything I read in November 📖
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I need a haircut so bad but I'm happy w my pyjamas :) Also, the author of Vattnet drar is called Madeleine Ström - not Strömbäck like I said in the video oops. Channels mentioned: @KDbooks who hosts the book club I'm taking part in Books mentioned: If we were villains - ML Rio, The castle of Otranto - Horace Walpole, If on a winter's night a traveler - Italo Calvino, Dracula - Bram Stoker, Feli...
books, knitting and trees ☕📚🧶 - a relaxing weekend of reading
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I'm getting through this year one unfinished craft project at a time :3 Books mentioned: Vattnet drar - Madeleine Bäck, 100 years of solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez, The Prince and the dressmaker - Jen Wang, The odyssey - Homer Simpson Music: Epidemic Sound www.epidemicsound.com
a dark academia where being hot is all the personality a female character really needs ¯\\_(ヅ)_/¯
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i'm last to the party to talk about this book but who cares. if you want to know how i feel about dark academia in general, lowercase léna has an excellent video here: ruclips.net/video/38IBAxhPJfc/видео.html Music: Epidemic Sound www.epidemicsound.com
2 years on low(ish)-dose T! | nonbinary transition
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hey hope you're doing ok :3 note: i know different brands of gel have different directions but for mine the full dose is 60mg/day so that's what I mean with a low-ish dose. Time stamps: 00:00 - Intro 01:27 - My dose 02:36 - Voice 03:46 - Mental health 05:49 - Facial changes 08:08 - Strength 08:49 - Body hair and top surgery scars 09:57 - Periods 10:32 - Genital area/sex drive 11:34 - Social cha...
all the books i read in october 📚🌙🍁
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oops I forgot I also read 2 graphic novels lol - Young Frances by Hartley Lin and Map of Days by Robert Frank Hunter. They were good, but forgettable apparently ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ music: epidemic sound www.epidemicsound.com
pumpkin, vampires and candlelight 🕯️🦇| reading vlog #4
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bahahaha just realised fortnight frights ended on the 31st - so scratch everything I said in regards to finishing stuff on time lol #fortnightfrights is run by the wonderful Seji @TheArtisanGeek www.theartisangeek.com/fortnightfrights Books mentioned: Dracula - Bram Stoker, The Tell-tale Heart - Edgar Allen Poe, a collection of poems translated to swedish - Alejandra Pizarnik, Let the right one...
scary horror books and dressing up as a ghost 👻
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scary horror books and dressing up as a ghost 👻
Chill weekend reading vlog ✨🦔🍂
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Chill weekend reading vlog ✨🦔🍂
showing you all the books i own while making apple butter 🍎🍂📚
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showing you all the books i own while making apple butter 🍎🍂📚
library love, cottagecore and zombies 🍂✨ | reading vlog #2
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library love, cottagecore and zombies 🍂✨ | reading vlog #2
Foraging, classics and gay romance ☕📚 | reading vlog #1
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Foraging, classics and gay romance ☕📚 | reading vlog #1
my autumn tbr | cozy reads for cozy season
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my autumn tbr | cozy reads for cozy season
my top 5 books of 2020 (so far)
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my top 5 books of 2020 (so far)
Booktube Newbie Tag 📚
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Booktube Newbie Tag 📚
Reading like Rory Gilmore - vlog from my first read-a-thon 📚 #RoryGilmore24
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Reading like Rory Gilmore - vlog from my first read-a-thon 📚 #RoryGilmore24
Trans characters in books - 4 good, 1 bad
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Trans characters in books - 4 good, 1 bad
1+ years on low-dose T! | nonbinary transition
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1 years on low-dose T! | nonbinary transition
8 Months on Low-Dose T | Non-Binary Femme Transition
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8 Months on Low-Dose T | Non-Binary Femme Transition
4 months on T + 1 year post op :3 | Non-binary femme transition 🧜
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4 months on T 1 year post op :3 | Non-binary femme transition 🧜
6 Weeks on T + 9 Months Post-Op! | Non-binary Femme Transition 🧜‍♂️
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6 Weeks on T 9 Months Post-Op! | Non-binary Femme Transition 🧜‍♂️
2 weeks on Low-Dose T Gel! | Non-binary Femme on T ☕
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2 weeks on Low-Dose T Gel! | Non-binary Femme on T ☕

Комментарии

  • @krystlesherwood8341
    @krystlesherwood8341 Месяц назад

    6 years later watching video and I have most things u do

  • @charlieerrozsanchez3835
    @charlieerrozsanchez3835 Год назад

    I was looking for this video. Yes yes yes

  • @AlexA-dr2wz
    @AlexA-dr2wz Год назад

    this is not what i wanted to see when i searched for binary scar 17 😂😂😂😭😭

  • @yoitscharms
    @yoitscharms Год назад

    Awwww someone needs some psychological therapy , whats the matter? Daddy touch you too many times as a kid???

  • @jachgranelli576
    @jachgranelli576 Год назад

    Hejsan! Jag förstod det som att du fick operationen via anova. Har man någon makt över var och vem som utför ens operation där och vem var din kirurg?

    • @ZiggiWillpower
      @ZiggiWillpower Год назад

      Jag fick min remiss till kirurgi från min läkare på Anova. Jag är inte så insatt i hur det går till i detalj, men som jag förstår det så betyder remissen att jag blev satt i kö hos de som genomför sådana operationer i det länet. Sedan kallade de mig, och jag blev tilldelad den kirurg som hade utrymme. Det är möjligt att man på något vis kan påverka vem som är ens kirurg, men jag vet inte hur det går till. Han som opererade mig hette Per Sommar, mycket trevlig person. De som vet mest om detta tror jag är Transformering, maila dem info a transformering . se :) lycka till!

  • @zz-ic6vy
    @zz-ic6vy Год назад

    Will you upload new videos?

  • @oscargreat1657
    @oscargreat1657 Год назад

    🏔 To the top you go and ⬇

  • @reneethegay9893
    @reneethegay9893 2 года назад

    Thank you for being you, I absolutely love all of your videos. I am getting top surgery in 29 days and your videos have helped me feel so comfortable and fill me with happiness and positivity surrounding my surgery.

  • @marysheamahiques3712
    @marysheamahiques3712 2 года назад

    Boyish. You still are a Fem

  • @user-ul3zg4ek8z
    @user-ul3zg4ek8z 2 года назад

    I've got bad social aniexty bad I'm so unfit mental & physiology when I would go to the gym I do feel really wide cuz am just so unfit & am not in to pulling wieghts. you seem pretty cool person 😁

  • @user-ul3zg4ek8z
    @user-ul3zg4ek8z 2 года назад

    Ziggi Love your ideas for journaling I will this myself as I suffer from aniexty & depression This is a very good idea 🙂😃 xx

  • @zurwife
    @zurwife 2 года назад

    This video helped out so much. Thank you for taking the time to make this video. Instantly subscribed.

  • @SonshineLady7
    @SonshineLady7 2 года назад

    This is one of the best videos I've seen to make easy, but powerful, mental health trackers. I live with and am on disability for major depression, general anxiety, and some OCD plus my mother and very best friend developed dementia and has been in memory care for about a year and a half. I have no support system at all (friends, social groups, church, etc.). It has been an extremely hard time. After expressing this to my General Practitioner at recent appointment, a home health team has been assigned to include a pscyh nurse, social worker, a P.A. specializing in mental health care who can also prescribe medications, and a counselor. I am just beginning this program and being able to provide information to them as well as tracking my progress would be really helpful. Thank you so much!!

  • @bornwithoutconsentobviously
    @bornwithoutconsentobviously 2 года назад

    Are you still on T if I may ask? Four years later lol.

  • @mellorocks
    @mellorocks 2 года назад

    i can't thank you enough for this video

  • @MatriarchOfChaos
    @MatriarchOfChaos 2 года назад

    Important question: how old (over or under 25) were you when you began? Some changes are less likely after 25

    • @ZiggiWillpower
      @ZiggiWillpower 2 года назад

      i was 32 i think when i first began taking t, i am very happy with how my body has responeded to t so far, and try not to compare or worry over what changes will or will not happen ❤️

  • @lx9037
    @lx9037 2 года назад

    What dosage were you on at this point? I want T. Just not hair loss. Might take a blocker for hair growth.

    • @ZiggiWillpower
      @ZiggiWillpower 2 года назад

      i think i say in the video, i don't super remember but i think 2 or 3 pumps of gel per day (20 or 30 mg t per day). hair loss seems to very very individual and not possible to predict, and in my personal opinion the potential positive effects wildly outgrow that risk of hairloss. it is ofcourse up to you, but i really urge people with worries about their looks etc to just try it. it's impossible to decribe what a life-changing effect it can have on your emotional and mental wellbeing ❤️

    • @lx9037
      @lx9037 2 года назад

      @@ZiggiWillpower thank you! And when I have access to it I am. I’m unemployed right now and in a toxic home. So living vicariously through trans people on RUclips and crowdfunding right now to do this safely.

  • @Alan-is3jk
    @Alan-is3jk 2 года назад

    omg, at first i thought the title read "the furries" and just nonchalantly accepted that there are novels about furries now... xD

  • @johnconway9673
    @johnconway9673 2 года назад

    The great thing about being a human is that we are all individual. You don't need to do anything! Being unique is great and should be celebrated.

  • @lorenabuni7557
    @lorenabuni7557 2 года назад

    Wow I wish I found your video before I started my journal

  • @_.not_what_you_think._
    @_.not_what_you_think._ 2 года назад

    bpd is bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder -there not the same thing- i just wanna say bpd stands for 2 diffrent things

  • @dontcaretbh1335
    @dontcaretbh1335 2 года назад

    End your story

    • @ZiggiWillpower
      @ZiggiWillpower 2 года назад

      I hope you're doing ok, it seems like you might not be in a great place. We're here when you're ready to listen and learn.

    • @dontcaretbh1335
      @dontcaretbh1335 2 года назад

      @@ZiggiWillpower who?

  • @nuria8224
    @nuria8224 2 года назад

    I don't know if you still read these comments. But can I just say how immensely grateful I am for this video.. It is so so nice to get these tips from someone who is not a wholesome hip young woman with empty inspirational quotes. Thank you for being so open about everything. I hope you are still in a good place <3

  • @owlcatxx
    @owlcatxx 2 года назад

    Your videos are absolutely delightful. I had saved one of your older videos in my Watch Later list for years, and finally watched it today, and now I'm binging the rest of your channel! It appears some of our interests are really similar (books, databases, and coding) and I'm so grateful to have found your cozy and lovely corner of youtube. Hope you might feel like making videos again sometime! <3

  • @elenatagliabracci8785
    @elenatagliabracci8785 2 года назад

    Just wanted to let you know how useful this is for someone who has BPD. I never found anyone that did that with bpd and it's so much better, all the in-depth parts for emotions and habits is so important for me. I wanted to thank you for this, hope you have a wonderful day <3

  • @theresaj8356
    @theresaj8356 3 года назад

    This video helped me so much, thank you!

  • @queerbaobab
    @queerbaobab 3 года назад

    :)

  • @josmith5992
    @josmith5992 3 года назад

    Hi Ziggi, I miss seeing your videos so I hope you’re doing well and enjoying summer.

  • @RyantheGiant2806
    @RyantheGiant2806 3 года назад

    i dont mean to sound rude but dosent non binary mean neither male or nor female so why get the top surgery?

    • @ZiggiWillpower
      @ZiggiWillpower 3 года назад

      You're correct that non-binary means not being male and not being female! My top surgery was to treat my gender dysphoria. Gender dysphoria is something that a lot, but not all, trans/non-binary people experience. It means having strong discomfort/anxiety about parts of your physical appearance that relates to gender. How gender dysphoria feels differs from person to person, the same way depression can be a bit different from person to person, but for me it was a strong, constant anxiety about how my body looks and is percieved in the eyes of others, and I tried to cope with these feelings with self harming, eating disorders, and doing things that were not good for me. Coming to terms with being trans meant that I could explore my gender expression, and the first time I put on a binder (like a very tight sports bra to flatten the breasts) I felt for the first time at home in my body. That led me into the path to get top surgery and hormone, which has been basically life-saving for me. But even though I know that top surgery and hrt relieves my gender dysphoria and makes me feel "at home" in my body, I still feel non-binary. Some trans people are men and women, I'm something else. I needed top surgery, and I need hormones, but I'm (at the present moment) still feeling I am neither man nor woman. I'm something else, and I call it non-binary. I hope this gives a bit of clarity into your question :)

    • @RyantheGiant2806
      @RyantheGiant2806 3 года назад

      @@ZiggiWillpower It actually really does and i really appreciate your response, im sorry to probe but you say that you were cutting or self harming, and also you had an eating disorder i find that very interesting and also you say you were having trouble with how your body was being seen in other peoples eyes? Im also wondering if you maybe received a lot of unwanted attention from men in your early teens and if this didn't contribute to your dysphoria. Here you are a young girl (at the time) in very strange confusing stage of your life you had your all these changes you may not have wanted and then all the attention from men so maybe you started to cut or control tightly what you eat? Also do you ever think about the fact that yes HRT specifically will raise you out of a depression because testosterone gives you euphoria? I really hope this doesnt come of as rude or transphobic im just extremely interested in this field because i think i might be body dysmorphic myself

  • @JoseeL777
    @JoseeL777 3 года назад

    I'm so touched by your video, this was so beautiful. You answered all the questions I've ever been curious about in such an honest way. thank you. You are super cute. Take care :)

  • @charlienicely7878
    @charlienicely7878 3 года назад

    Curious to know how it changed your tattoos (if at all).

  • @carish1452
    @carish1452 3 года назад

    You could be related to Franka Potente! Thank you for the ideas! I'm in the monthly/yearly statistics YAY camp too! Hahaha

  • @AJDunnReadsandWrites
    @AJDunnReadsandWrites 3 года назад

    I love your haircut! I miss having hair to play with like that.

  • @enea7138
    @enea7138 3 года назад

    so great to hear a fellow trans person talking about books on youtube. great video! thanks for the recs. Paul is one of my favourite books

  • @DNS0_
    @DNS0_ 3 года назад

    Thank you for this video. It's incredibly helpful.

  • @SeveredWires
    @SeveredWires 3 года назад

    Hello! Just dropping by to say hi. I hope you're doing well! Have a lovely day and lovelier week-end! ^^

  • @rileylomax2844
    @rileylomax2844 3 года назад

    We love you keep going this was a very helpful and relatable video for me❤️

  • @pennybean6851
    @pennybean6851 3 года назад

    Thank you for making this video. I have been trying to start a bullet journal to track my mental health in a more analytical way. This is perfect. And I love the graph you made at the end using the data you had collected.

  • @Simonknowsall
    @Simonknowsall 3 года назад

    And do you still keep a bullet journal?

  • @Simonknowsall
    @Simonknowsall 3 года назад

    Do you have instargam?

  • @beccascraps8141
    @beccascraps8141 3 года назад

    this is so helpful! i have bpd, Ptsd, depression, anxiety and adhd. I appreciate you being so vulnerable to help all of us.

  • @lord_juri
    @lord_juri 3 года назад

    just watching you makes me extremely euphoric, you are so adorable! thanks for sharing <33

  • @sevenhoursbehind2048
    @sevenhoursbehind2048 3 года назад

    love these tips 😊❤

  • @SanaShaikh-xb5mt
    @SanaShaikh-xb5mt 3 года назад

    You are so sweet and cute. Thank you so much for sharing about yourself❤️ Thank you so much for this video.

  • @Aztecinexile
    @Aztecinexile 3 года назад

    Thanks for having the bravery to share your experiences and perspectives! I hope your journey is going well, happy and fulfilling

  • @horseinthewind
    @horseinthewind 3 года назад

    OMG awesome!! 😍 I wanna read it again - its a funny thing how you yourself shape what you see/what you can see. Im curious to read it again now that I have also been able to see/name/feel my own transness and also went through quite a bit of mental health stuff. Yeah, by the quotes it totally resonnates with dysphoria :) Tack för videoen! :)

    • @ZiggiWillpower
      @ZiggiWillpower 3 года назад

      read it again! I think it is a text worth returning to again and again and again :)

  • @ameliareads589
    @ameliareads589 3 года назад

    I love your videos so much. They are really relaxing and I also love the sound of your voice and the way you talk. It makes me feel so cosy.

  • @buckybarnes1544
    @buckybarnes1544 3 года назад

    Wait--is the movie The Craft based on a book? Because we should find it! I love that movie. "We are the weirdos, Mister." Sorry this one sucked so terribly, but I must say "[girls at a private school meddling in the occult--what's not to love??]" made me snort-giggle, and I hope you're doing well.

    • @ZiggiWillpower
      @ZiggiWillpower 3 года назад

      sadly I don't think The craft is based off of a book :...( I wish it was! But still, it is a camp and magical beauty. It's kind of refreshing to read a real piece of butt from time to time hehe

    • @buckybarnes1544
      @buckybarnes1544 3 года назад

      @@ZiggiWillpower Oh no, Manon has failed us! ;) Let us know though if you find some good campy occult private school mastery. I have needs! Lol

  • @amypink1111
    @amypink1111 3 года назад

    Database class! Good for you. I am also in school, something similar-ish. I am working on a master's in Nursing Informatics. (All the numbers and data stuff in healthcare.) Hope you are well. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us in this vlog. much love, amy

    • @ZiggiWillpower
      @ZiggiWillpower 3 года назад

      Nursing informatics looks really cool, and sounds like a great way to work in healthcare but als not have to have thousands of patient interactions every day? i guess my introvert is showing lol i would die if i were a nurse.

  • @SeveredWires
    @SeveredWires 3 года назад

    As always I absolutely love your vlogs: the scenery, the house plants, the candles, the music, the food, the tea, all of it spells comfort and it's lovely. I didn't see the whole Angels in America TV series but I do think there's Emma Thompson, as an angel? Then again I haven't tried to watch it in over a decade so my memory may be spotty. If you're looking for a light fantasy audiobook, I'd recommend The House in the cerulean sea. It was the first audiobook I really listened to (only last week!), and I loved it: it's funny and heartwarming and perfect if you prefer characters over worldbuilding. That being said, I loved Circe and I'm super looking forward to reading Song of Achilles even if I expect it to be break my heart a little. I hope your reading spark continues shining on! :)

    • @ZiggiWillpower
      @ZiggiWillpower 3 года назад

      whaaaa was i right woth emma thompson?? i did have this image in my head that she was in it, but then i looked it up and saw only meryl streep. need to look again! House of the cerulean sea is on my to-read-real-soon list, have hear so so soany good things!!